Leaning From The Steep Slope

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1.
Dot to Dot 03:31
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Now look at all these people that will soon enter your dreams They've got plans, they've got ambitions They've got friends and families They're not just props And you will treat them as such I was too careful keeping curfew To care for all the dots that I passed by The dots they formed a gradient It was the gradient they formed that caught my eye And I was sewing them like quilt squares into place On the Cartesian plane Until I saw my own name I knew I was out of place But who were they to say the same Or to suggest not generalising? I've got things in hand I've got caffeine in my system I've got no time to listen and I can't Join the dots I've got bigger plans I've got not time to listen And I've got s– All these dots and the lines they form But I only care for mine Thought I know it's wrong I promise I'm trying my best to conform Could it've saved a life? Maybe then I'd have known
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Crossbar 02:05
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Hanging from the crossbar Let the blood rush to my head Security can drag me out Pull me by the arm and yell "Shouldn't you be home by now?" Sir, I've got places not to be She doesn't wanna talk to me She thinks I'm not listening And when I get home she's mad And when she gets mad I'm sick Like swallowing a fishing line Scraping my oesophagus And I don't wanna feel like that Just pretend that I don't exist Live in someone else's shoes Clenching someone else's fists I only saw a chamber wall The handle wasn't there at all And neither was the bedroom door Night terrors had me on all fours And when I lay there paralysed I couldn't even cry for help Just praying for a sedative I murmured but I couldn't yell And I don't know what I said Only that I did say it The memories are vague like that They surface when you least expect And when I get home she's mad And when she gets mad I'm sick Like swallowing a fishing line Scraping my oesophagus And I don't wanna feel like that Just pretend that I don't exist Live in someone else's shoes Clenching someone else's fists And when I get home she's mad And when she gets mad I'm sick Like swallowing a fishing line Scraping my oesophagus And I don't wanna feel like that Just pretend that I don't exist Live in someone else's shoes Clenching someone else's fists Hanging from the crossbar Let the blood rush to my head Security can drag me out
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All I Want 01:35
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In my search for my peace of mind A few close friends and some spare time Is all I want It's all I want It's all I want
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There's Something in the Water Down There 04:59
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She came at me this time I swear You know I'd never have the game to ever come at her Even if the feelings on my side were there Even if the feelings on my side were there Oh, you're a speaker, you're beseeching here for peace But you know she could never be where you need her to be You called her last night, but she didn't seem to care You're sensing that the feelings on her side aren't there She came at me this time I swear You know I'd never have the game to ever come at her Even if the feelings on my side were there Even if the feelings on my side were there Oh, you're a speaker, you're beseeching here for peace But you know she could never be where you need her to be You called her last night, but she didn't seem to care You're sensing that the feelings on her side aren't there She got angry last night, told me 'go away' But she doesn't know my thoughts from the words I say I can't hear with her nagging, much less think I can't speak without thinking what to say Well, I'm aware of the fact that some of the things she told me Suggested some responsibility I should be holding But I don't have time for that Hands drenched And body mirroring So quick to keep the conversation moving So quick to keep your– Well, I don't mind But only because she's above me There's something in the water down there...
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Fireplace 03:17
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I love to sit and talk to your hand It's like a second home to me It's all I have It's all I need I've got friends with no idea who I am Beyond the colourful words I speak And through no fault of their own doing But I don't wanna wish I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close I don't wanna with I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close How does the hive mind manage to Sit so still To stay so collected and calm? Well, I don't need to fall in love Anymore Just a seat next to the fire to stay warm 'Cause I don't wanna wish I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close I don't wanna wish I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close I surround myself with those I love But I still feel so alone I just wanna come back home I don't wanna wish I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close
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So You Thought 03:14
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As for me A piece of your puzzle I'd rather not be But oh, to choose, I'd kill for the luxury if I could But I'm the only shape I fit into And you wouldn't like the alternative How I wish sometimes I could be you To understand what all of this is Oh, so your thought somehow We'd be set up by now? Oh, how I'd love something To show for all this time Have you ever seen Something so perfectly where it should be? A shape so cylindrical it's beyond belief Moving just as it should There's something so deliberate in that rhythm There's something so clinical and clean Don't act like it's infallible, it isn't There's something so Satanic in your speech Oh, so your thought somehow We'd be set up by now? Oh, how I'd love something To show for all this time Oh, so your thought somehow We'd be set up by now? Oh, how I'd love something To show for all this time
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He's an Eccentric 01:00
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In an era of romanticised esoterica Smoothing over intricacy Everybody wants an eccentric No one wants to deal with eccentricity You're lying to yourself You're lying to yourself You're lying to yourself You're lying to yourself
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Lying to Yourself 04:29
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Tired of consciousness and into bed I'm uninspired, un-faultless, uninterested Amid the quiet dark, thoughts become interbred The esoterica and the colours in my head There's something hiding in the leaves of these Liquid Ambers Always there but never bothering to offer help But I know it's nothing of benefit to my mental health So I lie to myself
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Raffles (Interlude) 01:01
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Varsity Nedlands 04:13
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Mum called, frog inside her throat Articulating on the phone Something horrible, I'm sure I only heard the dial tones I could see it in my head Curse my imagination Wished it had been me instead Who had tripped along the edge I sat sobbing in the car Listening to my own song So presumptuous of me To think I could know anything Hogging all my attention Something that I've always done Couldn't see beyond my faults That someone else might need it more I've no idea where I should start Sanctimonious at heart Had the words all written out But couldn't bring myself to talk "Hope that everything's alright Will you trust in me some time? Yeah, I know you need your space But when you're ready give me some sign" Are you doing much tonight? I heard the news and I can't sleep I need a friend by my side I need comedic relief
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Spectator Sport 02:16
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Watching my thoughts become my actions A vicious cycle littered with exits and warning signs A cute vignette, but all it meant Was that my head's split into factions and borderlines Watching my thoughts become my actions A vicious cycle littered with exits and warning signs A cute vignette, but all it meant Was that my head's split into factions and borderlines Watching my thoughts become my actions A vicious cycle littered with exits and warning signs A cute vignette, but all it meant Was that my head's split into factions and borderlines Watching my thoughts become my actions A vicious cycle littered with exits and warning signs A cute vignette, but all it meant Was that my head's split into factions and borderlines Who'd you have been, had you cared? A list of possibilities swept under the rug But the floorboards are clean And so is your mattress So soundly you sleep While you're conscience stays active, I'm Watching my thoughts become my actions A vicious cycle littered with exits and warning signs A cute vignette, but all it meant Was that my head's split into factions and borderlines Watching my thoughts become my actions A vicious cycle littered with exits and warning signs A cute vignette, but all it meant Was that my head's split into factions and borderlines Watching my thoughts Watching my thoughts Watching my thoughts Watching my thoughts
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To Be You (as a Seed is a Tree) 04:00
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Canary Melody (w. Catlaine) 04:56
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Light from my window Venetian shadows on my face A canary-type yellow And it's singing my praise There's a fly on my ceiling Where the plaster is raised I never used to see it, but I'm seeing it today The sun beam‘s honey I eat for breakfast Wear the dew drops as a pretty necklace Don‘t you see that shadows are coloured? Periwinkle shade on my covers Little crevices Lovely blemishes Scents on my pillow Light through my window Light through my window Shadows on my face Canary-type yellow My praise
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Fireplace (Live Acoustic Version) [Bonus Track] 03:26
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I love to sit and talk to your hand It's like a second home to me It's all I have It's all I need I've got friends with no idea who I am Beyond the colourful words I speak And through no fault of their own doing But I don't wanna wish I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close I don't wanna with I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close How does the hive mind manage to Sit so still To stay so collected and calm? Well, I don't need to fall in love Anymore Just a seat next to the fire to stay warm 'Cause I don't wanna wish I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close I don't wanna wish I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close I surround myself with those I love But I still feel so alone I just wanna come back home I don't wanna wish I was them anymore I just wanna have you close I just wanna have you close

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released March 19, 2021

All songs written and produced by Isaac Lee.

Additional songwriting on Canary Melody by Celina McCarthy.

Additional arrangement and backing vocals on Fireplace (Live Acoustic Version) by Harriet Finlay.

All songs recorded by Isaac Lee in his bedroom except for Fireplace (Live Acoustic Version), which was recorded at Sweet Cheeks Studio and engineered by Nathan Menage.

All songs mixed by Isaac Lee in his bedroom.

All songs mastered by Daniel Cross at Sweet Cheeks Studio, except for Fireplace (Live Acoustic Version), which was mastered by Isaac Lee in his bedroom.

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